What made you stop being an addict?

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

What defines the k'vanna of the Book of בראשית?

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

What does Jesus mean in Revelation 3:3 when He states, "Wake up! Strengthen what remains and is about to die, for I have found your deeds unfinished in the sight of my God?"

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

Why did lobsters evolve bright colors if they are neither poisonous nor venomous?

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

What is the reasoning behind conspiracy theorists claiming that there were multiple shooters involved in the JFK assassination?

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

Is there such a thing as "left wing fascism"? If not, what is an example of a political ideology that is often mistakenly labeled as "left wing fascism"?

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

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A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

I did it in my administrator's office.

How do you emotionally react to when others seem to feel sorry for you?

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

I am 13 and I am planning to run away. What should I do to succeed?

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

Is Matt Gaetz qualified to be Attorney General of the United States?

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

Why do you write?

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

And I can also talk to them now.

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

Just keep trying

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

This was February 2019.

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.